Dear Kayla,
Congratulations. You have improved and stayed stable for a while. As you know, that is a pretty important achievement.
After becoming stable, your focus changes. It is sometimes difficult to understand and work with the changes.
Many people who have become stable simply stay in place. For me, that would not work. For me, and this is just me, focusing on keeping stable is like treading water. It can work for a while, but eventually I need to start moving or I will drown.
But changing your focus can be difficult. When you are very sick, you are best off simply focusing on one small step at a time. Once you become a little better, you have more options. But sorting out those options can be tricky.